Choosing Happiness.

  This was my view during lunch this afternoon. It was pretty mild for only being 50 degrees outside, but the wind compensated for what little warmth the sun had to offer anyway, so I didn’t eat out there very long. 

  Still, it was nice to find a quiet space in the middle of this bustling hospital for once. Being on day shift has really made me yearn for the silence and solitude that night shift brings like never before. I’ve found myself wanting to revert back to old habits and draw back into my shell, instead of taking opportunities to socialize with my new coworkers quite a bit this week. One of the main reasons for this has been because I have started second-guessing my transition from the SICU to an outpatient unit. 

  With all of my fears starting to overshadow the good things that have come out of this change, I felt the need to tactfully talk it out with a few people today- a skill that I’ve had to master during my recovery from depression.

  I’ve been reminding myself that life- and all of the curveballs it throws, is only what you make of it. Change is easy to talk about, but very difficult to implement. Once it has come, it can be very easy to only see the bad in situations and focus on the negative. But I can’t allow my fear of change (and in a sense, starting over) to keep me from succeeding in this endeavor. I’ve started down this new path, and I’m determined to see it through.

   Today I’m choosing not to let negativity take away from appreciating the positive and beautiful things around me. Today I am choosing to be happy.



In Baltimore Schools, Free Meals For All

Photo Courtesy of: The Baltimore Sun.

This made me literally jump for joy!

As a child who came from humble beginnings, I know what it is like to have very little food certain days, or not enough money to buy a school lunch.  Getting shoo’ed away by a lunch lady for something that costs $1.50 should be an experience that NO child should ever have to endure.  Finally, the Baltimore City School System is doing something right for these young Americans!


For the first time in the history of the school lunch program, all children in Baltimore are created equal.  Beginning this week, every student in the city, regardless of income level, is being offered free breakfast and lunch under a federal program that allows school districts to eliminate a decades-old meal-subsidy structure for students in high-poverty schools.  Baltimore is among a handful of districts in Maryland taking advantage of the opportunity that was opened to schools nationwide last year.  Maryland schools are able to adopt the program under state legislation passed this year in the General Assembly.  Del. Keith Haynes, chief sponsor of the legislation, said Tuesday during an announcement at Beechfield Elementary/Middle School that the law is the “great equalizer” for city students, closing one more gap that exists from socio-economic disparities.

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Mj ❤

The Judas Kiss: Baltimore Police Commish Trashes His Officers

I hope you all have enjoyed this warm weekend!  Hopefully yours was not plagued with heavy rainfall, like mine was.  A friend of mine shared this article with me a day or so ago, and after reading it (and doing a little digging as well,) I thought it would be appropriate to share with you all.  Now, we’ve all heard the old adage about history repeating itself, and the recent events in our town may lead one to believe that perhaps we’re witnessing that very phenomenon now.  I suppose time will tell, but in the meantime, enjoy the read, and feel free to share your thoughts in the comments below!

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“We are part of the problem[.] … Now we have to change.”  So declared Anthony Batts, the African-American police chief of Baltimore, at a press conference on May 6, 2015.  The man in charge of this minority-majority department since September 2012 denounced his officers, impugned their integrity, and undercut their mission.  Continue reading

Analyzing Law Enforcement Deaths: What’s Missing from These Statistics?

A grim but fitting topic this week. As someone who has fought depression and suicide first-hand, I can only imagine the amounts of pain and suffering our Officers are subjected to on a daily basis. Departments need to do more to help Officers maintain their mental health and well being.

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Mj ♡

e-Roll Call Magazine


In the past decade, 1,553 law enforcement officers died in reported duty deaths. That is an average of one duty death every 58 hours or an average of 150 duty deaths per year.

How can departments analyze this data to help them determine and implement strategies to attempt to reduce the number of duty deaths?

First of all, it’s difficult to get a comprehensive picture of duty deaths because each reporting agency categorizes them differently. The data below came from several sources in order to analyze law enforcement duty deaths over the past decade.

Law Enforcement Deaths 2004 – 2014 (to date)
Aircraft Accidents: 25
Auto Accidents (Cruiser): 448
Assault: 9
Bicycle Accidents: 3
Boating Accidents: 3
Bomb-Related Incidents: 6
Drowned: 21
Electrocuted: 4
Fall: 23
Horse- Related Incidents: 1
Law Enforcement Related Illness: 192
Motorcycle Crashes: 72
Poisoned: 1
Shot (all types of firearms): 568
Stabbed: 14
Strangled: 1

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The Dangers of De-Policing — Will Cops Just Stand Down?

Photo Courtesy of:   EPA/MICHAEL REYNOLDS


Hey all, I just wanted to share another post that really resonated with me and the times that we find ourselves in.  Please continue to pray for our men and women in blue as they put their lives on the line daily for our city and cities across the world. Continue reading

Dangerous Lies of an American Movement against Policing.

A perfect summation of the emotions and sentiments I’ve regarded over the past few weeks. Very well written, and very well said.

Humanizing The Badge

Officer Brian Moore died today.  He was 25 years old, loved his job, and was held with the highest respect from his fellow officers of the NYPD.  When I was 25 years old, I didn’t even know who I was yet.  I was stuck in that weird world between knowing how to be an adult and remaining a child.  Brian Moore was already serving his community, protecting it’s citizens, and putting his life on the line; a decision that would ultimately call him home at an incredibly young age.

This is the 3rd NYPD officer to succumb to his injuries in the last 6 months.  I recently spent a week in New York City and I spent the time watching the interactions between civilian and officer’s on the street.  There is a heavy police presence in New York City.  You don’t walk down the street very far before seeing NYPD’s…

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