Choosing Happiness.

  This was my view during lunch this afternoon. It was pretty mild for only being 50 degrees outside, but the wind compensated for what little warmth the sun had to offer anyway, so I didn’t eat out there very long. 

  Still, it was nice to find a quiet space in the middle of this bustling hospital for once. Being on day shift has really made me yearn for the silence and solitude that night shift brings like never before. I’ve found myself wanting to revert back to old habits and draw back into my shell, instead of taking opportunities to socialize with my new coworkers quite a bit this week. One of the main reasons for this has been because I have started second-guessing my transition from the SICU to an outpatient unit. 

  With all of my fears starting to overshadow the good things that have come out of this change, I felt the need to tactfully talk it out with a few people today- a skill that I’ve had to master during my recovery from depression.

  I’ve been reminding myself that life- and all of the curveballs it throws, is only what you make of it. Change is easy to talk about, but very difficult to implement. Once it has come, it can be very easy to only see the bad in situations and focus on the negative. But I can’t allow my fear of change (and in a sense, starting over) to keep me from succeeding in this endeavor. I’ve started down this new path, and I’m determined to see it through.

   Today I’m choosing not to let negativity take away from appreciating the positive and beautiful things around me. Today I am choosing to be happy.

-Mj❤

Ain’t The Way To Die

 

If you haven’t already been moved by this video and the incredible message behind it, I implore you to follow the link below and learn more.  I’ve been on a bit of a morbid “kick” lately, if you will, but these are things that must be talked about and not ignored the way that they are.  Please check it out, share it, and don’t hesitate to start discussing your own end of life wishes with your loved ones.
Read more: http://zdoggmd.com/aint-the-way-to-die/

With Love,
Mj ❤

Knowing How Doctors Die Can Change End-Of-Life Discussions

“Nora Zamichow says if she and her husband, Mark Saylor, had known how doctors die, they might have made different treatment decisions for him toward the end of his life.” ~Maya Sugarman/KPCC

Morning to you all!  It has been a while since I’ve posted anything (just as I foretold,) but I couldn’t pass up the opportunity to share this article with you.

Have you ever had one of those moments in life when a photo, an article, a sound or a taste somehow resonates with you on a deeper or spiritual level, so much so that you end up unearthing a well full of gut-wrenching emotions that you thought you no longer had the capacity to feel?  That is basically where I am right now.  I am at the bottom of my well. Continue reading